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Friday, November 26, 2010

Sylvia Plath's - Poppies in October

This is perhaps one of the most beautiful Plath poems I've ever read. You can easily connect to her writing. Oh how I love Sylvia Plath.
Even the sun-clouds this morning cannot manage such skirts.

Nor the woman in the ambulance

Whose red heart blooms through her coat so astoundingly ----A gift, a love gift

Utterly unasked for

By a skyPalely and flamily

Igniting its carbon monoxides, by eyes

Dulled to a halt under bowlers.O my God, what am I

That these late mouths should cry open

In a forest of frost, in a dawn of cornflowers.

Excuse me, Montague.. It's Plath's reign once again.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Nadezhda, Nadezda... Krupskaya, Melencio...

There is no such thing as duty. If you know that a thing is right, you want to do it. If you don't want to do it—it isn't right. If it's right and you don't want to do it—you don't know what right is and you're not a man.

Chapter 6 of Ayn Rand's We The Living

I just remembered my Philosophy of Man class.
My professor once asked me, "What is the difference between man and being?"
I forgot what I answered. At that time though, it was the right one but if you ask me now, I don't know if I'll answer based on knowledge alone or from experience. Bah! What am I talking about?

Let's get back to the topic, so... Ayn Rand is right. If you know it's right, then do it! If you know it's wrong, why would you do it anyway? On the other hand, if it is right and you still don't want to do it, you have a problem buddy!

Ayn Rand
Boris Pasternak
Leo Tolstoy, etc etc. 
I love Russian novelists! <3

Of course, there are other Russian personalities that I also admire such as 

Vladimir Lenin

 and wife Nadezhda Kruskaya. (Yes, my name Lara Nadezda is derived from Nadezhda herself)

Wow, I am deeply inclined with Russian literature and Russian history. No wonder I want to take up European Studies next year. :)

My greatest dream? To win either a Nobel Peace Prize or a Pulitzer Prize. Any will do but I'd be as happy as hell if I get both. Wait, can a non-American win a Pulitzer?

Saturday, November 13, 2010

I have seen "BITTER" days... and Nights!

Reps to all the people I saw last night at Cubao X! The crowd never ceases to amaze me.. There's always something in Cubao X that will surprise you. Well, then again, it just might be the people, the conversation, the events or the alcohol.

Last night was a different story. Since, this blog was really made for unrequited love and star-crossed lovers, there ought to be just a tiny inch of negativity. Okay, so it was a bitter night -- far much bitter than the rest. I am trying to write this amidst the hangover so please forgive the scattered thoughts. Anyway, I am depressed --- BIGTIME and I don't know why. This actually sucks the life out of me. Is this maturity calling? Is it my heart bleeding? Bah! I don't really know.

Despite the fact that I am kind of "over the edge" right now, I am not bitter. At least that's the one thing I know I am not. See, my friends and I had a long chat about bitterness, about their exes and stuff. The result --- it feeds on my depression.

For all those BITTER sour-grapes out there, you have to.....

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

“You're invited to tons of parties, and you'll wear these shoes and that dress, and it can be enticing, but I think it also sucks you dry. If you do it a little, sure, it's fun, but too much and you start to lose your footing.”

Monday, November 8, 2010

10 Things. Just 10 Things.

I need a boyfriend. Want to apply? Please send your CVs to

  1. Pleasing personality.
  2. Has to have any background in the field of arts (writing, painting, music, fashion, poetry or literature). Just one will do.
  3. Preferably someone with long hair (okay so long-haired guys are my weakness but it doesn't really matter. It's just a plus factor)
  4. Someone who is not a commitment phobe.
  5. Doesn't like complications.
  6. Preferably someone who doesn't have any vices like smoking, drinking, drugs, etc.
  7. Only drinks occasionally.
  8. Can be a smoker but definitely not an alcoholic.
  9. Shares the same passion about helping people.
  10. Someone who is consistent.
See. I'm not so picky after all. :))
For those of you who think this is not a joke, you can send your CVs to or you can text me. My number is at the top left portion of this blog.
For those of you who think this is a joke, well yeah I'm just doing this for fun but "Jokes are half meant anyway". Haha

>>I've got to find another Montague

Friday, November 5, 2010

Halloween Party... Meiday! Meiday!

Late post. These pics are found on my fb page anyway.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010


Ok, so I totally made up this event. I was so drunk and wasted last Saturday and it was a disaster! I never want to drink again. Well, at least not that many. 

I decided to come up with an event entitled "SOBER SATURDAYS"!! Here are the details.

  1. Sober Saturdays happens every other Saturday of the month which means I can only drink 2 times a month for a healthy liver and less humiliation or whatsoever.
  2. This is the time that I bond with my friends. Instead of wasting money on loads of beer, I'll just shop, dine, play, watch a movie and have coffee.
  3. I'm starting up a new org/group (part of my reinvention) so I can be busy and not think of parties or alcohol.
  4. I'll be taking extra load of work so that I won't have any excuse to drink after work.
  5. I just grew up. I'm 22 and what have I accomplished? This is part of me redeeming myself, of me establishing myself. Leave the partying and the drinking to the teens.

This will be a hellish week but I can do this! Care to join me? Let's get sober!