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Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Improvisation, What The?

So here we go again. Writing. Wow, I miss the days I miss writing. A bit weird eh?

Lets talk about improvement. Ok, so I'm now back. I've been working for more than a week now and it feels good. This is my own personal workplace..

Let's see if I can remain sober for a few days. Let's see if I can just sit and relax at home for a couple of days.
Let's see if I can come up with improvements about stuff and shit. Let's see if I can still put up with his BS. 

This was taken before I was admitted at the hospital. Can you see the bruise?

This is the MRI results. See, it's negative. No blood clots or whatever.

In terms of health, I have improved a lot.
In terms of wealth, well I still need to work extra hard to keep the cash flowing.
In terms of personal stuff, it will be okay somehow. I hope. Haha

"And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise.  The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt."  ~Sylvia Plath

>> I've been waiting for months now, Montague...

Monday, October 25, 2010

Then she came, The Psycho Bitch...

My best friend visited me last night. We haven't seen each other in a while now and we had a nice long talk over coke (I mean soda) and cigarettes. We talked about virtually anything from love, life, stoners, junkies and psychos. The list goes on and on. Then, I got to watch this creepy, disturbing, violent film called "The Loved Ones" which is about a psycho bitch and a twisted father. It was a weird night, I tell you. Of course, we gave a bit of advice to each other. We really needed time to think about our lives, our choices and stuff. 

After a few jokes, music stuff and venting out, we talked about pseudo-relationships, which boils down to just one topic: commitment. Why are some people afraid of commitment? Why are some people afraid to take risks? Why do some people like to play it safe?

You see, the real essence of loving a person is committing yourself wholeheartedly. No pretensions and complicated stuff. The main point is to take risks. To experience life together. To laugh, to cry, to hate and to laugh again. That's the way love is.

The presence of commitment phobes are the ones who created these psycho bitches. So when your girlfriend turns psycho over you, you're really the one to blame. I think, women are more superior and more talented than men that's why they tend to adapt, to cope. 

Montague, I'm not sure if I can still be your Capulet...

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

To Commit or Not To Commit?

To Commit or Not To Commit? This question had been lingering my mind now for days. Commitment can be a lot of things. What kind of commitment am I talking about anyway? It can be about work, about having a stable job, about God, about love, about someone special in your life right now. Whether they are about any of these things, the question still remains... "To Commit or Not To Commit"?

I read a book entitled The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood. One of my favorite lines there was the distinction between "Freedom from and Freedom to."  According to the book, during the days of anarchy, we are rewarded with "Freedom to"... freedom to love, freedom to hate, freedom to oppress and the like. But with the advent of the new government and religion (You should read the book. It's great!), the people had been rewarded with "Freedom from"... freedom from love, freedom from hate, freedom from oppression and the like. So which is better? Freedom from or Freedom to? I would choose the latter.

Back to the commitment thing. When is the right time to commit yourself? When is the right time not to commit? How can you choose whether to commit or not? Who gets to choose? I'll answer the last question, "I do --- and you do too".

Lots of thoughts, more ideas.

No matter what this leads, I'll always be your Capulet.., my Montague...

Monday, October 18, 2010

Back to My Old Life... Back to Writing!

Yes,  Lara Nadezda is officially signing on and would never sign out ever, ever again! I'm back guys whether you like it or not! I'm so effin' happy with my life right now I wanna cry. Being a tech support rep wasn't really my thing. It was a fun experience though but writing is my passion. Writing is my Montague. Writing is my world. For me, writing is like breathing fresh air (before climate change/ effects of global warming). All these string of thoughts are so overwhelming!

I promise to constantly update this blog. I would do whatever it takes to write meaningful things, share my innermost thoughts and express my feelings. Wow, I really missed writing!

What do you say about HALLOWEEN COSTUMES? I will attend a Halloween party on the 30th followed by a mask off (Halloween party without the costume). Sounds exciting right? Any ideas? Feel free to comment. Let's get started.

On the other hand, I am currently looking for an available streaming or download of the movie LOVELY,STILL... Just watched the trailer and can't wait to watch the real thing! Please give me links. It will be greatly appreciated. After this, I will write a very interesting movie review which, I assure all of you, is a must read!

Let's get it on!

Yes Montague, I'll always be your Capulet.